I believe me sharing my struggles and going on that journey to heal, is the light. I am giving them a process, my process and they can try it and it may or may not work for them, people want answers on how to deal with their mind, body or spirit. We are all here to be one in the universe and we all want to feel whole and complete, more so now with people waking up and going within themselves they need to know how to deal with emotions and need real experiences to connect with not some textbook. I believe this will create the collective to be stronger cause we are working together, race/gender/colour/age (all mean nothing), we all bleed red – we are one.
(Journal Entry 17/4/2022 – I have been feeling a little shaky about spending Easter today with 2 family members no longer with us. For me in the past if I wasn’t able to be there on the day, I’d still be able to ring and hear their voice. When I was there, we would have the same tradition to catch up at lunch time at my Uncle’s or on the rare occasion it might of been at another family members place.
As us souls do, we ask one another what are your Easter plans and my normal/programmed response I’d say ‘don’t know’, “whatever”, ‘just another day’, ‘family catch up’ but the honest truth of the matter that a few friends know ‘its going to be a hard day to deal with’.
I’ve been reassuring myself with the healing and tools I’ve learnt so far, I’ll be right, I’ve got this, I’ll get through this – we have got through challenging times before and I’ll keep busy. My friends quote ‘flip the switch’, turn negative into a positive.
My 1st thought today when I woke up, today’s is about looking and appreciating the past but realising it is now the present moment so to focus on pulling myself back to the right here and now. Then think about all the good in my life that I have going on right now and to be proud of myself (this is my key for today to empower me and provide strength to keep going with today) and then think of possibilities of how I would like to spend future Easter’s now that the tradition/regular pattern has changed so I can overcome this feelings and break this cycle for the future.
Today is about taking back control in a respective way and accepting and knowing I have to move forward in next year’s to come, I give myself permission to enjoy this beautiful day in a new way and in the way I choose so today I will shift between past and present and future thoughts with the respect to honour the past and be present with today by thinking about possibilities on how I would like to spend the future Easter’s. Working through the emotions and feelings and thoughts today, acknowledging this is part of the healing process, allow feelings and emotions to rise and deal with them and express them by speaking out or letting out the tears.
Knowing by doing this work of addressing my mixed feelings today, I have the intent to respect the past for what it was and to be able to live the future the way I choose I want it to be and not feel guilty if I don’t do the same traditions or belief.
💞💞You will always be in my heart Nan and Aunty Polly💞💞
Thank you for reading about my journey today and wishing you enjoy your Easter and sending you love and blessings 😘)